Psalm 139

Psalm 139
Psalm 139 - One of my favorites of all time.
How do we know the matchless wonder of God? How do we know we’re loved? How do we know we have a purpose?
God spoke to me today through scripture and a letter. I sometimes question my worth and my purpose - even my calling. I am sifting through pieces of my life that were left in shambles. It’s like putting a broken mirror back together. Pieces of shattered glass left strewn across a floor and I am left to glue them back into place. Some pieces will never be recovered and some are swept away with the dirt. I am left wondering. Do those pieces really need to be there? Is God getting rid of things, or am I just damaged goods that will never recover?
It’s in those dark moments that he is shaping. He is quiet. No voice. No whispers. Nothing. You come to end of yourself screaming out “Where are you God?” No answer.. You live. You go on.
It’s when there’s nothing left to hold to, no sense of self, that He moves. Suddenly an unusual door opens. People emerge out of the woodwork to help. A second chance on life.
Is this all coincidence? Did God forget you for 3 years, or 7 or 15?
“Your eyes saw my substance yet being unformed. And in your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet, there were none of them” Ps. 139:16
I dare say to you, He Knew. He knew how to get you to the end of yourself - so you would reach up for him. He purified and pulled out things that were keeping you from your best. He widdled out those things which so easily entangled us (Heb 12:1 ) and brought us to full dependence and surrender to him.
So here you are. At the end of all things. Or is it the beginning, the start of a new chapter in your life? And what are you going to do? Be bitter- or mad that He has brought you here? Or, could you allow yourself to let go of all you know, and let God start up something you could never hope for imagine.
Let Go.